Thursday, November 6, 2008

Night

I am sitting at my desk at work. The night fall is upon us. I have a business meeting after work that I don't want to attend... to bad it's my business. You know what I would love to do? Go home. I love my home and the feeling I get when I walk up my walk up. Even with the heavy breathing and sight of "Bodied".

I saw her yesterday and she made some silly comment about my hair. It's funny. I am a grown woman, who has never and will never get violent, but my ego sometimes chimes in and I want to bash her head into that steel front door. I digress.

The winter approaching is nice. I love the seasons. I don't go outside much though and that can't be good for the soul. It's just by the time I get off, its black outside. Its not a big deal, but damn it I miss June already.
I'm all out of thoughts today and hope to find another job soon. The one I am in is making me insane. I'm so frustrated with being here, but know there is nothing I can do about it. I just have to be with it until God says jump.

The {stuck up} one has a birthday on Saturday. He has been texting and calling lately. I told him on Tuesday that I was not interested in seeing him. Wednesday he said he missed me and today he said he loved me. It is all very sweet. He is an awesome guy. I'm not sure what it is, but how is that men I am possibly interested in are 10 feet away and dudes I don't give a second thought to wants to get on bended knee. Can you get up off the fuckin' floor?

I want to run away from home. What is amusing about this new adventure is I am not running away from anything, except myself. Even more ridiculous, I like who I am... it is the job, business not taking off in a timely manner, the world waiting on Barack to fail, the man of my dreams taking his sweet fucking time... sorry... tangent. I guess it is one of those days that I am feeling a bit... how shall I say... antsy.
SIDE BAR: I love that no matter what in the months and years to come, everyone wants to believe in something greater than themselves and yet it is about who we are being that brings the collective together.

GO BARACK OBAMA + 3

It is 433p on Thursday and I am breathing.

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